I cannot tell you the number of times I have tried to simply sit down and write. I have so many things I have wanted to share with you all throughout this past year. Whether satan keeps managing to distract me or life just keeps getting in the way or simply the fact that many days I’ve had to just focus on breathing, I have left so many things unsaid and in darkness for far too long. So now, whether it makes much sense or not, I have issued an ultimatum to myself that I will just sit down and write, and no matter what comes out, I will hit the publish button this morning.
Has it truly been almost one year?
I feel like it can’t be possible, it feels like yesterday, yet I also feel like I have grown and changed so much more than could ever be possible in just one year.
It makes me think of that first year of life with our children. In one short year, they go from completely helpless, utterly dependent, crying and pooping, beautiful little messes who can’t even hold their little heads up to tiny persons who can walk and talk and exercise their will on the universe. I’m not sure there is any other time in a person’s life when they undergo such rapid change and growth.
Did any of you throw a birthday party for your one year old? We did. But it really wasn’t a party for Jude. I mean he napped through at least half of it. We threw a party to celebrate not just how much he had grown, but how much WE had. A party to celebrate that we’d survived that first year of parenthood and somehow managed to keep the baby alive.
It’s been almost one year since Kevin died.
One year since I died with him.
One year since I was born into a new life and a new identity.
One year and I’ve managed to keep myself and my kids alive.
One year where I have gone through untold seasons of darkness and doubt but have also experienced unspeakable life and light and joy.
This calls for a celebration.
This coming Sunday, December 21, please join my family for the 4th Annual Hill Family Chili and Cornbread Supper. Come anytime from 3:00 on and stay as long or as little as you wish. We will have, appropriately, chili, and cornbread. There will also be punch and pie. Because more people will come if you have punch and pie. Don’t bring anything but your warm bodies and hungry appetites. Help our family as we step out of the darkness and back into the light of life.
4TH ANNUAL HILL FAMILY CHILI AND CORNBREAD SUPPER
SUNDAY DECEMBER 21 3:00 PM UNTIL ???
746 PEARCE STREET SW ATLANTA GA 30310